I am not a reader

You know... with yesterday's music blog that was so random, I decided today I should address my reading habits.

I hate to read.

That really is a strong statement.  I don' really hate to read but I have always had difficulty with it.  Reading has never been truly enjoyable for me.  (That would probably be more accurate).  I enjoy short snippets.  Periodicals and magazines, online resources.  All of these feed my reading needs much easier than a book.

This is sad really especially now that I think about it.  I have to wonder why this is so.  I can blame it on alot of things.  I can blame it on my ADD (yes I was diagnosed).  My attention span stinks.  It always has.  I get terribly distracted.  This makes books difficult to follow.  I also have a difficult time finding the genre of books that interest me enough to keep me going from page 1 to the end.  This is petty really and I should give them another try.  I also get all hyped up for a recommended book only to find that it was not all it was cracked up to be, at least for me.

So, I am looking for a new book to read.  I have no idea where to start.  I can go stand in Borders for hours and come home empty handed.  I can go across the street to the library and come back to church with nothing.  This frustrates me a ton.  I am coming close to finishing my current book on prayer and meditation but what to read next.

Let's look at my reading list for the past 10 years (books I have finished.  There are many more that got tossed aside).  This might help to figure out what the next step would be.

Chronicles of Narnia -- this series excited me.  I got lost in this series and did not want to put it down.  This never happens for me which was really cool.

Messy Spirituality by Michael Yaconelli  -- Everyone should read this book.  Yaconelli was an amazing man who set out to remind the world that we are not perfect and Jesus came for our imperfectness.  I have read it 3 times.  I have never finished his other book.  Hmmm... maybe that is a thought.

A handful of Youth Ministry resources -- I have tons of books in my office and have read most of the important parts of them -- philosophies on youth ministry, Bible study topics, etc.  There have been good ones and ones that were really a waste.  This is not the kind of book I want to read right now.

Power vs Force -- This was an interesting book.  It was suggested by a friend.  It challenged me.  It kept me interested.  It was way over my head at times but I still kept reading.

So now I am again at the burning question, "What should I read next?"  There are an infinite possibility of choices but what is really going to help me grow to the person God intends me to be.  It doesn't have to be a "God" book.  If some romance novel is out there that will help me understand love and peace in my life, I would surely be interested.

I guess as I get older (even though I am never getting old), I want to read more.  I want to learn and figure out  things in this world that I have never understood.  Reading is not a bad thing and I know that I need to do more of it.

But what?