Castle on a Cloud

To say that I was off yesterday would be an extreme understatement. I experienced a whole range of human emotions that really left me unbalanced. When you begin discovering new things about yourself, often it comes with doubts, hurt, heartache and confusion. Friends and family are unsure what to think and can cause you to further squash the firey passion inside. That is when it is time to refocus.

Many times God puts people and experiences in our lives that help us see what is already there. Things that we have forgotten... things that are buried... or things that are right there in front of us and we have just overlooked for whatever reason. Without these people and experiences yesterday, I probably still would be a lump, a pile of mush.

There is a castle on a cloud,I like to go there in my sleep,
Aren't any floors for me to sweep, not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a room that's full of toys, there are a hundred boys and girls,
Nobody shouts or talks too loud, not in my castle on a cloud.

There is a lady all in white, holds me and sings a lullaby,
She's nice to see and she's soft to touch. She says "Cosette, I love you very much."

I know a place where no one's lost, I know a place where no one cries,
Crying at all is not allowed, not in my castle on a cloud.

One of my favoritest musicals is Les Miserables. (yes I said favoritest). There are so many words of hope and encouragement in a sea of uncertainty in that musical. All I can say is WOW. This is gonna be kinda personal -- but this is the song I used to sing to Jody when we first dated. We were both going through confusing times in our lives and just needed to find that "Castle on the Clouds." It is a truly beautiful, innocent song but really came alive in my head last night.

Often times in our lives, we need to find that peace. We need to find that calm in the storm. We need to BE in the presence of God. We need to radiate the love and peace that we feel to others. Sometimes amidst the chaos, that is hard. Sometimes in our own doubts and confusion, we just find it easier to put the fire out and move on.

Many times though, the real-est most special feeling in the world is to help the doubters, those unsure of this newfound peace and love to find a peace and love of their own.

Today I will work on breaking down the walls in my life. I will work a little harder to share that peace and love with ALL. It will take time but I can't feel stronger about anything in my life.

AMEN